Babez… Will You Marry Me?

“lazizi wangu wee
zawadi nono kutoka mbinguni
nakuwaza my baby
nikikuwaza usiku silali

nikikuona na wengine nashikwa na wivu
naomba unipe namba yako nikuvutie wire
nikupeleke Java
tunywe kahawa
tukizubaa duba duba”

Lazizi- Sauti Sol

I know I have been silent for the larger part of this year. If I said that I have missed writing, then I would be lying. If I said that I have been alone… well, again I will be lying. I wish to not engage with you my readers today. Today, I will address she who has made me a better man. Today, I will address she, who has made me feel from deep within. Today, I choose to address she, who has made me want to settle down. Today, I ask the said she to MARRY ME.

The Very First Time,

I remember the first time I met you. I cant lay a finger on what exactly attracted me to you. all I know is that I knew right there and then, that I wanted to see you again and again.

I remember the very first time I nervously muttered the words “I Love You…” I think was surprised me the most about those three words, were the fact that for starters, I meant them and the second thing… the fact that instead of feeling vulnerable, I felt rather relieved. It felt like a huge load had been lifted out of my shoulders.

I remember the first time I took you out on a date. We were in a different world, in probably one of my favorite parts of that world. We talked and you know what? we connected. It was simple. It was just the two of us, open spaces and the afternoon went by so fast, that I think we got lost in our own time.

Thinking back, it is on that very first date, that I knew I wanted to see more of you, and that I wanted to be a part of you. Thinking back, it has been an epic journey.

I remember the first time I made you cry. Yes, we have had rough patches as well. You needed me, and I was not there. I failed you on that day. I know my presence would not have changed much. However, what it would have done though, was that it would have eased your pain. My role was not to make your troubles go away. It is that day, that I realized that my role in your life, was to share your pains and lows. It was to share you highs and smiles. It was to be your shoulder to lean on. My role, was not to make sure that you never have problems. It was instead, to make sure that you never have to face those troubles alone.

My Second time,

Babez, after so many firsts, I soon realized that I had to continuously wow you. I had to keep ‘wowing’ you time and time again. Every good deed demanded another.

I guess after the first three months, lets face it, we both realized that we were in whatever it is we were in for the long haul. It was now time to settle and understand the flaws in one another. The ‘pretty face’ was over. Now we were on to the ‘normal’ face. The best foot had been put forward. Now it was time for us show each other the other foot.

It has not been easy babez. You have seen me at my low moments. Seen me at my highs. Caught me as I was going through my lows. You were there when the unexpected happened. And you were there for what I knew would be. You took tea with me at my cheap cafes… and you were opposite me as we wined and dined in fancy hotels. Babez… after all that we have been through, all I can say is that I Love you now, more than I Loved You the first time I said I Love you. It defies logic I know. But here we are babez. Here we are.

One More Time,

Babez… I am settled with what I feel for you. I am settled with how I feel for you.  I am not a man of many complexities. I am not the loudest of the bunch. I am not the most hardworking of the bunch. I cannot lay claim to being the most handsome of the bunch either. And let’s face it, I we both know I isn’t the sharpest tool in the shed either.

I however, with all that I am. With all that I am worth. With all that I have. With all that I will ever have, do say to you babez… that I lay claim to being the man that will Love you like no other. I lay my claim to being the man that will go to the ends of the world for you. I am that man, who you know, will be true to you. I am that man, who promises to always do good by you.

Babez… in times of pain, I know tears will flow from your cheeks. I also do know, I will be by your side to help wipe every tear drop that flows down from your cheeks.

Babez… in times of joy, I know your huge laugh will ring loud and your smile will brighten the room. I promise to be there to share in it.

Babez… here I am. A simple man. Here I am. A man humbled by who you are. Here I am. A man in Love with all that it is that says you. Here I am. A man ready for whatever the future might hold. Here I am. A man who wants to spend the rest of my life with you. Here I am…. A man who can say so many words… when all Raymond wants to ask is… CYNTHIA, WILL YOU MARRY

I am a lucky man